Ootzuchi Kotzuchi

Unconditional

2011-04-15T22:59:00.001+08:00

If you feel any doubt of the love your partner has for you, make sure that your suspicions are grounded in reality. If you hurt your partner as a result of undeserved mistrust, he/she may end up doubting both your love for them and theirs for you

It doesn't insist too much.

2010-09-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

Probably.. you realise the value of the moon for the first time only when u lose it...

....

...

Nakama

2010-08-18T03:36:00.003+08:00

"She says, if 2 years later, she didn't die... She will be my GF. "

Those words only happen in drama. It will not happen in Singapore.

Well she did said that to me.. ( she ain't singaporean though)

For God so love you. He will not take you away.

Words

2010-08-13T15:19:00.003+08:00

Its as though, im walking alone... for all these years.

Lack of company.

0388

2010-08-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

Its My birthday., Its my birthday.. haha..

Well, i have made no wishes this year...

Fight

2010-07-31T02:13:00.006+08:00

Even the lowest of lowest have their pride

When you are down at the bottom, You will fight from the bottom!

Empty Nite

2010-07-27T01:15:00.003+08:00

For every night.. i'm wide awake.. Couldn't get into sleep..Doesn't want to sleep.

Because i'm afraid.. i'm scare of the next day.

Scare of my next day as its always the same..

Knowing the moment u open your eyes again, looking at the clear sky..

Knowing its a new day... but nothing is gonna change...

Nothing is changing,

Nothing has change..

Shine

2010-07-25T23:36:00.008+08:00

How to become successful?

What is successful?

High in wealth? established career?

how to make myself rich with money?

That future

2010-03-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

说好的新福说好的未来
我看不到我感觉不到
要如何才能让我知道

Give it to me..

2010-03-17T21:14:00.002+08:00

怎麼了妳累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得

妳不等了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚乾了放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢

在一起叫夢～
分開了叫痛～
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛～
迷路的後果～
我能承受這最後的出口在愛過了才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最後才說再見
妳送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天
哦越過妳劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

Lyrics that feels

2010-03-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一点
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
只怕你把沉默当作对我的回答。

很想说有你是幸福的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说我们可不可以复合。

越是新福越害怕怕它会结束
越拥抱却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞
我自己照顾。

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争操一后
还是想要爱你的冲动。

Damn!!

2010-02-09T22:24:00.002+08:00

I fucking going crazy... driving me crazy.... fuck it.. whatever~!!

360

2010-01-01T00:18:00.003+08:00

The clock striked, and its back to square one again...

My Bitter Heart

2009-11-24T01:35:00.002+08:00

Going downturn, life's been so screwed up..
The light I seek... the steps ahead, how long more will i reach....
My bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,and my shadow helping it to hide.
Just afraid i will fell...

Keep Running

2009-10-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

The More Precious the Burden, the heavier and More Difficult It is to Shoulder It.

Fastforward

2009-10-23T21:09:00.004+08:00

There goes my weekends again..
Work have been piling up, More tasks are coming up in next 3weeks dealing with Singapore APEC 09!! What else could there be..thou i'm a small role..but still Involvment is still an all out.
29 to 1 Nov rehearsal...
9 Nov to 15 Nov actual APEC; the biggest event of the year.
However pressure ain't getting near me.

Hui, Panda! i would have to back out from your big day. sorry
Its an honest excuse... don't take it to heart. because...,

"For every minute you are angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness." HAHA

anyway..... It will definitely be a great nite for u gals.

Well...

Coincidence

2009-10-05T22:20:00.006+08:00

In e morning and then the evenin'... What bout' tomorrow then...
.....I wonder. =)

Felt a little joy.. but also a little depress.. somehow.. =/
Well.. What comes around goes around..

Google across this pieces of work. Its awesome isn't it...

Perseverance

2009-10-04T20:57:00.010+08:00

"If you keep thinking about what you want to do or what you
hope will happen, you don't do it, and it won't happen."

I want to be strong.. to be stronger.
Back then i didn't have any confidence. But now i'm different..and I believe so.
I'll work towards it, somehow or somewhere in the time to come.. i know..,
I'll be there...where i wanted..

If This's What You Call...

2009-09-07T16:45:00.001+08:00

Shouldn't a home be a place where all come together, all the laughter, the joy, the sorrow. But then, why am i feeling that something else..
So quiet, So lonely.., heavy atmosphere anywhere i walk.. A home..... is like just a room to me. a room where i only see myself, music i hear, a laptop, a bed... no one seems to talk to one another after all the uproar. so dull.

This is my home..

Time to Recharge

2009-09-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

8am to 3am i have worked.. I need rest.

Tonight.

2009-06-28T00:38:00.005+08:00

A simple day @ sentosa during the evening with the dudes.
Once awhile live life simple can be good..
Time has been hectic as always.
I need a silent place, smooth music, a bottle of wine..
Need refreshing.

Seriously hangover

2009-05-17T14:03:00.003+08:00

Chilling session with the guys last night again
I cant remember what happened, Seriously hangover.
Dropped my phone., the manager came down help to find,
Lucky its found. Haiz I'm completely drained, goner.

A well spent Saturday nite thou.

Feels the Pain

2009-05-09T18:23:00.007+08:00

"WHEN PEOPLE GET HURTS, THEY LEARN TO HATE."
"WHEN PEOPLE HURT OTHERS, THEY GET HATED AND ARE RACKED WITH GUILT."
THIS WORLD IS FILLED WITH HATRED, PAIN WILL NEVER LEAVES,
BUT KNOWING THAT PAIN ALLOWS PEOPLE TO BE KIND,
PAIN ALLOWS PEOPLE TO GROW AND HOW YOU GROW IS UP TO YOU.

"GOD LOVES US SO MUCH THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BELOVED SON TO DIE FOR OUR SINS"

Justaway

2009-05-06T22:00:00.006+08:00

Games, games, games & more games!
Movies, movies, movies & more movies!
Just play...Just watch... Just Dance!

For a laugh

2009-05-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

Big time mistake

2009-04-27T23:33:00.003+08:00

The feeling of getting caught at locked up in cell isnt a joke..
What happen has happened, you cant stop whats going to happen.
its a matter of how u should react from now on.
Tell yourself to be calm.. dn worry too much.
Take this as a lesson to be learn

May God Be With You

PS: for a fren of mine.

Hang out

2009-04-26T22:41:00.004+08:00

April 11 Saturday - Sentosa with the boys of 9yrs

Its been long since we last went.

Alot never turned up.. But still it was well spent.

I SeEs heLLL

2009-04-14T19:03:00.003+08:00

All i need is a hard wall..So i can run onto it and bang myself hard enough to finish me off..
Screwed! Screwed! Pissed and disappointed with myself.
I couldnt achieve it..
How much hope and effort put in, yet i let everyone down.
Disgrace to myself.

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes, Got nowhere to run
I'm sick of this life, I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Kills me off instantly pls.

My life is f***ed

2009-04-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

Today while chatting with my colleagues, one of them joke, says tml if doctor says your leg still not recovered, we have to find someone to replace u off your post. I joke back.."wah planning to kick me out le la." They laughed.. After a pause, theres one reply, "Thats of course! now you know" straight to my face. FML

The Voice that Calls Out

2009-03-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

My existence, how much does it worth....

No matter what

2009-03-01T22:09:00.001+08:00

living in despair.

Likes.

2009-02-18T18:50:00.003+08:00

Starting Aug 08 till now.., i have not stop thinking.
Just wants you to know its always in my mind.

Isn't it great for the past months you're much happier, much relax.
Its just a time of cooling down i guess..

Its never just mere memories for me.
its so deep inside my heart.
maybe i still... maybe

fuck what am i talking...
Words from my heart are so difficult to show it out..
I don't know how to say..
whatever
its so troublesome to...

C.E.R.F

2009-02-15T18:15:00.002+08:00

The clock is ticking..... time is passing so fast..
its as if i've got no time to rest..
Its too fast...

I'm tired... my eyes are closing..
i can see it... its so beautiful..
Just let me sleep.. don wake me up...
its the only best moment i had..

....its all a dream...

Are you depressed or lonely?

2009-02-13T22:23:00.005+08:00

Taking a carton of eggs out from the fridge
& look at it & think maybe one day I'll crack an egg &
a chicken baby will fell out.
I'll wash him off and raise him indoors...

and then.....then I'll have a friend.

Sometime I just donno how to react

The saddest thing is
I've got no ones to talk with..

I'm merely a boy who stands far from others..
losing the faith slowly

For i am only me..

what about now.

2009-02-11T22:32:00.003+08:00

Family breakdown..... yes.. my family breakdown...
Communication breakdown..
argue la.. go ahead argue...
Sleeping in the same bed with different mind, soul, love.
Afterall..
the childrens are the one who suffer in the end.
All parents in the world.. listen!
stop debating what u want from your partner, but rather what you can give to your partner!
dont come to a age when all else fail then start fucking at each other fault.
nbcb!

Reminisce

2009-02-09T20:17:00.002+08:00

Always come across my mind time and time again.

Your face.

Stressful me..

2009-02-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

As expected,
1st day of PTI course, i can see the hardship that i have to go thru for 1mth.
With my Knee like this...
how can i run within 11.40, & my weakest 8 chin up.
Pathetic!!
Its so disappointing that I've to declare difficulties in running with knee pain.
PTI lei, cannot run... throw face..

Why?!

NS only.. why work so hard..
my as well slack all the way.. relax..
now injured, also cant relax anymore.

Its true,
Life is more important than anything.

The moment of time

2009-01-30T23:54:00.003+08:00

With 1mth of Physical Training Instructor course
to become instructor & 1yr5mths to go at TP,
My Final stage has begins!

I couldn't think of any better or positive,
for i have problem running now with a injured leg,
yet...
i still have to run 10km with a 20kg bag,
doing high elements.., and to pass with a silver
starting monday
which i see myself not up to that standard.
What if i fail my PTI course?
Disappointed.

Knowing my task at TP,
is as good as knowing my pressure is rising,
so much task under me, admin work, field/physical work,
deployment to patrol, heavy working atmosphere,
many superiors, Limited time to learn.
.
.
I'm stress

God I Pray...

Oh Let it be! Just let it be.

2009-01-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

Times flies 4months of training had pass,
never a trainee anymore..and
As I was flipping through the pages of my life
I found myself stepping out,
out into this world.,
with lots of work coming up, challenges to face.

Asking oneself to take care, to work hard
but unable to direct these to myself.

Facing Your own self is facing your own persona,
your shadow

Stress Free.....

REtro Party

2009-01-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

Some Photos taken at Jing 21th Birthday..
Everybody looks great....
but i Botak..

Where had my cool appearance gone to?

Wish i had hair!!!!

Hey hey is that me... why was mine posture so gal!! gosh!

Now i have Hair!!!!!! yellow hair

Dead as it is...

2008-12-07T23:28:00.003+08:00

Lookin' at others... lookin' at myself.
..Its just so troublesome...
But I couldn't help it..

...Nothing has change....

I still couldn't find it,
couldn't find that something...

...which is happy.

If it continues...
maybe...

...maybe the world around me will never change.

Half alive

2008-11-30T15:52:00.003+08:00

Will anything ever change...
If i keep going like this?
Will such a day ever come?

I just have to find something..

something new...

That's fun or happy..

And just like that...
...another typical day comes to an end.
With no goals in mind...
...or direction to devote my passion.

...another empty day.

Happy Thanksgiving

2008-11-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family

Don't eat too much and spend more time to watch anime!!

Otaku...?

2008-11-23T10:35:00.016+08:00

Morning as early as 8am, I'm out till 1am.
My first visit to Wild Wild Wet was great, & it occupied 4hours of my day.
Hell yeah! Some sightseeing and wow! wasn't bad..

An event going on at Suntec!! yeah AFA!

Anime Fair Asia 2008

Thanks Joan for the info while i was in-camp, although i did receive email from Latendo regarding this great event.
Never did i expect such great atmosphere there, many cosplayers, i saw allen, lenalee, but not kanda & lavi. where the hell they go.? also misa. wanted to take pic of her, but looking at the camera i had with me.. i turned my head away. tsk!. no naruto, bleach cosplayers, i guess im too late..or they went back. And where the hell is Gintoki and co. why isn't kagura there when i reached. Can't they wait a little longer for me to be there. HAHA
Was hoping to see them as well as lala, shana, and all from chobits. Sob.
Oh and some real great artist are there. May i be like them! May i be like them!
Hoping for the chance to get classes, and have a comics studio x or coral painter.
I'm desperate to learn!
Only if i carry a digi cam with me! ARghh! Sux using a camera hp, unclear image & poor lighting for sure.

Crap I was too late! majority been missed out!

Just some silly ones taken & no idea why i took, it look meaningless to me now....

Mina!!!!...

And this is what i bought.... Cyborg Franky from the anime OnePiece...
Huge and Big!!!

*Only if...... then it would have been more fun.

Maybe its just me...

2008-11-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

Now there's something that I don't understand a single bit.
Hate, Sadness, and even Happiness....
Unable to share it with another person.
No one knew the pain like I did..
It makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

They flourish upon my face, dwell in my eyes
They give me my being, to expose my pain
To inform of my oddity, in keeping my mind sane

They are my tears, my wound & trust
I try to compile...
But hurt is my lust.

Nowhere....

2008-11-08T13:31:00.004+08:00

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us.
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust.
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here.
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years.
Steady hands, just take the wheel... And every glance is killing me.
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere .
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared.
But I've become what I can't be, oh Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there.
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now. I'm gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out..
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare..

I eat potato chip, drink coke, give u a slap, u also cant chase me.

2008-11-02T11:03:00.002+08:00

The day start off as early as 10am. I lost my N lvl cert.. How stupid i am.. laugh at me.. I had to go MOE so early in the morning to get a new copy. Adam, that ang mo was with me.. Yes right holland V is just walking distance from MOE..thats our destination next. walking down the road., sightseeing as usual, got ourselves a drink while walking.

So Town is next, met up with Andy at heeren, then Khy, Din and his gal at far east. follow by Hairul. And so all of us met up, movie was the plan, "MAx Payne" After dinner at Cine, we move on to esplanade. Lingering around..., too much cocksters as well as nonsense to share.. pics will tell all.. So the time's around 11pm. we then make our way home.

Oh what was it, what was it..? oh yea.. the sightseeing were great.. hahahaha!
Nevertheless, our first outing.

*Fun and laugher brings back memories, memories of past.
In the heart. How nostalgic....the lost, I missed.

From the Left..
Khy(golden mouth), Hairul(old man), Adam(ayam sake), Ryan(ah beng), Din(FI-Fucking idiot), Din's gal/Sabrina(the teenage witch)

Tamama!!
Imitating Tamama from Keroro Gunso

At Long John..

Was That my dream Car? Duhhh..ya dream..

Buddy... Kai & Khy

Oi Oi Oi.....

Ryan's Encore Monologue

2008-10-27T13:16:00.006+08:00

Dreams should look like this

However if you think about it, its more interesting to climb up rather than just looking at it.
There are some things that you will understand only after you've climbed up...
It seems that I've broken into a sweat by accident.

. . . . . . .

Using watercolors are troublesome
Drawing sceneries are also troublesome
Walking back and forth is also troublesome
The whole business of manga is really troublesome

And come to think of it, even living is troublesome!

I wished that i could become a Cheeseburger...!

Yes Sir, Yes Sir, 3 black fool

2008-10-24T16:41:00.001+08:00

Woo... I'm back this weekends.. so good to be back..

We are forbbided to let out any infor on our Corporation. so i can't say more.

Everyday are pretty much the same.. Training & training & still training. Its relaxing at time, chill.. its not tough, but bored!!!
Every weekends i'm at home.. no much idea how to spend my weekends, all my friends are not around by me..NS ones NS, galfren one galfren, boyfren one boyfren, Schooling one busy with school work, as usual lo...

Laugh at my life!

I've made new friends, most have nicknames..i have too, (ah beng/Ong) they are a bunch of jokers.. but asshole as well.. Tsk
My bunk mates aren't bad.. we fight(fake Wrestling), we train ourselves, exercise, we fool around playing mini football, we sing songs and hell nonsense remix.. HAHAHA!! Crap!

...Fun and laughter....

I'm falling sick.. 3days ago i got fever & sore throat. Doubt my sore throat able to recover easily. Why? everyday sing songs, do our nonsense remix.. stupid la..We're bunch of botak idiots.. HAHA! i deserves it.. *i spread my fever around, i'm so infectious that 2idiots got it as well..one of them is my buddy, he even vomit, worst than me. sia la! sorry la khyruddin! WAHAHA....!! LOL

I've just completed my Sh_ot!n9 T3st.. ya that.. I am a marksman!! Ya know how hard it is to be a marskman! So proud and glad can.! HAHA

Monday night i have to book in again and there goes again, the 3months cycle.
So I still have close to 4days free starting today.. Yawn!!!

Stay tune... Ryan will be back. -.-Zzzz

~Byejya

Its Getting Near, Yet Still Far to go..

2008-10-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

Here I'm back after days of rest.. Reason because my notebook suffered a mental breakdown..
She's PMS-ing for many days, resulting in me left with no option but to get it fixed and formatted. Worst Viruses were detected...Bitch!

Right.....3more days left... on the 7october, I'll be facing a new challenge ahead of me, as my life in ns for the next 2yrs come close. I'll be leaving, leaving my freedom, leaving my games, animes, videos, my enjoyment and there goes my usual daily life.
What will i face, i do not know. What will happen..i can't predict. For I Seek not to find who i am, but to determine who i want to be. So I will tell myself to stop looking for a purpose as to why I'm here. But to Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

So starting today, I'll Face my past without regret, just handle my present with confidence & prepare for the future without fear. I have the blessing from God., the light that shine on me will continue to...as me the son of God, has nothing to fear. Faith is what to keep you going.

Sooo, Peeps out there... faster..leave some words for your friend here, hah. buy him stuff to cheer him up.. haha.. Ns life isn't a joke...

Jaaa~ Take care everyone and you if you're reading. =/

Jaa Mata~

Bo Tai Chii....

2008-09-22T20:26:00.002+08:00

Just some Random pictures...too much to post.

Hi guys, or Hi to myself...
I just return from my Batam Trip. I had fun.. Quite a de-stressing trip..
Eat and Eat and Eat... Okay, nothing much more to say..hmm
I'll post some pictures real soon. (just some)

Bye-Byecycle~

Jaaaaa

The Fog Is Clearing....

2008-09-09T00:59:00.003+08:00

Many days have passed. I’ve taken a long break from this blog the last couple of weeks I know. Alot has happened in my personal life,which was a big source of stress for me.
I'll still continue to walk the path..an uneasy path and de-stress myself.

I'm kinda totally lost and clueless of my direction for this Last 1more month(or less).
I'll get back and hopefully the de-stressing process will allow me to get my mind straightened out.

For now, slowing down the path is the best way. I believe, if there is, it will or it might be.
Slowing down the path is the best way for now.

Jaaa~

Walking away...

2008-08-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

Do you walk away when you've been defeated?
Or when you're close to being defeated?
Do you walk away when you see a better place to be in?
Or do you stay until that better place makes room for you?
Do you walk away only when you're hurt?
Or do you walk away before you hurt yourself or someone else?

Is it a good thing to walk away?
Or should you
stay?

The most important thing is
I once got together with her
The time was so short
Like it was only one day
But this one day..
Is enough for me to memorize in my entire life
Because I've already put her here..
here in my heart,
Never will forget.

EPL highlights

2008-08-24T01:01:00.010+08:00

Newcastle 1 - 0 Bolton

Newcastle 1-0 Bolton: Owen to the rescue

Michael Owen sent a timely reminder of his goalscoring prowess to Newcastle owner Mike Ashley to kill off Bolton's stubborn resistance with the only goal of the game.

Jonas Gutierrez holds off Gavin McCann

A great start. A great result. Look forward to 30aug at Emirates Stadium
for the match between Arsenal & Newcastle.

Elsewhere the score for tonight matches:

Blackburn 1-1 Hull
Liverpool 2-1 Boro
Stoke 3-2 AstonVilla
Spurs 1-2 Sunderland
Westbrom 1-2 Everton

PS: this is a boring post for those non-football fans.

Damaged...

2008-08-22T22:53:00.005+08:00

Its getting heavier each day...

And I am the apple that fell
too close to the trunk, worm-holed
bruised and rotten to the core,
Never in the mood to do anything,
Scared.

For 1second
Imagine,
what it must be like
to be me and
Think, about
how hard it is
to walk in my worn shoes.

江惠家後 MTV

only if i could...

2008-08-22T01:47:00.003+08:00

Due to some circumstances...
sry to this customer, for me showing a little temper to you..
i was told after that i look kinda fierce when i handle him.
hmm..
now i think back... mayb i did..,
that i show my temper...
I never thought that i bring my personal feelings into work.
Just...thots are running ard my head..

When you're gone
And the words i need to hear to always get me thru the day..

My heart is so heavy in the nite,
when the moon is shining bright...

There goes my day..

PS: hey ppl, how u think of this blogskin with the oldies soundtrack. hah i kind of like it. Retro?

原谅我 lyrics

2008-08-20T22:39:00.001+08:00

作詞：阿沁作曲：阿沁

萧敬腾 - 原谅我

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受他比我適合
愛放了手我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受他比我適合
愛放了手我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

Fly away....

2008-08-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

Sentosa

What a tough day..
days ago, sunday 17aug
Joe drive us to sentosa without knowing the way..
But we manage to reach sentosa.. 1hr in the van directing him the direction.. funny

anyway, headed to sentosa
chompchomp for dinner.
then i headed to cousin house to watch football tgt.

Manu 1-1 Newc
Pefect result for Newc.. fantastic Given for his saves.

49 more days....
i gonna pack myself with work work work and earn more money before the enlistment..
this is starting to get nutter.

There seems to be no different for the past few days..
haiz....

Life is wonderful if you noe how to live it.

See this 2guys there really enjoy their youth. LOL
3mins onwards is kinda lame and funny.

PS: for my previous post.. juz wanna say..i was agitated as well..oh i'm too fierce..sry

Its all becos of........

2008-08-15T23:39:00.005+08:00

I'm Better of alone,

You think everything is stupid..
You think i'm tired of it..
You think i busier than u..
You think i thought too much..
You think i talk to u half heart-ed..
You think i find u troublesome..
find talking to u is troublesome..

Let me tell you..

I think our mind are stupid
I think is you who's tired of it
I think is you who's more busy
when even thou i busy i take a little time to atleast sms u,
unlike u.. not even a words when u are busy
I think is u who talk half heat-ed
I think is u who find it troublesome..
juz like wat u said..u juz keep quiet and do ur own thing
and dn bother about me..

You angry at me,
I angry at you.
I seek the explanation,
You say i think too much & ask for the sake of the ans.
I care about the situation,
You juz keep quiet and ignore.
I think and think cos i care, cos i worried u angry at me which i dnwan,
You keep yourself occupied by work so not to think.
You are juz running away..running always
Just as i start to break this silence
you start to say all bad that i did.

Now i say i not happy with u keeping quiet & ignore me for days, sms with a tone of coldness
and you say you aren't happy with my past replies with the same coldness feel.
You are juz unhappy with that.. and u keep quiet choosing to use coldness back to me.
Doesnt it shows a sense of purposely

Whenever we argue.. you always like to end it with "do watever you want ba" So now..i have nothing else to say..since i already break this silence.. i just want to forgive & forget.. but now its should be you to start breaking this silence once again in days to come..

I can say no more becos there is nothing else i can say to describe how i feel as perfectly as you deserve it.
Your actions has made tears dwell in my eyes.

I once said, i hope we wont get agitated with each other anymore,hope we wont be like last time
You said u want me not to have negative thoughts..
But now.. you hold the grudge of me replying moodily when im tired or sick.
Its you who have negative thoughts now and then..

Juz do ur best in your exam now. dint go smoothly doesnt matter no need to feel sad.. at least u tried your best.

Our timing are always wrong..Our mind are always not connected..

Original Fake Fall/Winter 2008 - 4 Pocket Shirt

2008-08-15T20:23:00.009+08:00

I just recall last Tuesday i went Surrender and saw the people there unpacking cartoons of new clothes.. I peep into it, OH its this year august 08 new release. I saw a design of my taste. I love checked shirt. This is the look:

Original Fake Fall/Winter 2008 - 4 Pocket Shirt

If only i asked the price that day.. i would be considering it now.. Now its makes my heart wanting to go find out again. hope its affordable for me.

*izit true that when a person is down, she will go shopping like no other business, eat like no one cares. Me..? somehow now i feel like spending on more Tees,shoes and change change change.... mood sux...

haiz today still the same.. so silence.. Hello! please break this silence laaa.

ok....Show time.

一天电话都没响过就这样! 一天的注意力都在它身上.

2008-08-14T23:48:00.005+08:00

一天电话都没响过
就这样! 一天的注意力
都在它身上.

If i follow the stream....will i get to the sea?

If i follow the sky....will i see the heaven?
If i follow the stars....will i get to you?

This loneliness feeling can no longer take it anymore

Friends, kanajo, tomodachi, nakama....where are yo...

Clueless & lost

2008-08-14T01:23:00.003+08:00

Why am i constantly unhappy each day..
Gimme a break..

Simply Clueless and lost.

2008-08-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

ok whats now, I totally dont understand you.. angry at me for?
for me slping then dint pick up ur call..?
I simply don't understand...

Today's weather so cold...strong wind everywhere.. but my body temperature is sibei hot now...!
Fever

2008-08-11T22:07:00.004+08:00

There's nothing that can please you

You're always never satisfied

You Tried giving up

But you never stop feelings for it

What you want,

Is not Money

Is not Jobs

Is not Love

Its. .

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Geez... I'm so craving for them!! argh..

The Drawing days, the memories

2008-08-10T13:51:00.002+08:00

The Drawing days that use to be
The moments of holding the pencil
Never to be seen for months
A laziness act
Or a lost of inspiration
What should he do

No one else
Has taken a glimpse of these papers,
Just the boy, and an old pencil.
Bonded together, by past secrets and lies,
He tries every day
To forget them.

He is the apple that fell
too close to the trunk, worm-holed
bruised and rotten to the core,
Never in the mood to do anything,
Scared.

His fingers are getting all ready
But Its the mind that had lost all vision
Draw is wat he uses to have only
which he himself sees and communicate

But now he's no alone anymore
He just clueless and lost
He hates to dream its just so troublesome

Its hard to walk with a worn shoes

2008-08-08T00:34:00.004+08:00

Show show show!!

Tomorrow an off day for me.. so wont be sleeping early even thou my body is tired. Today seems like just a "show" day for me..I watched hitman reborn ep93&94 & bleach during work, Jap drama[Lotto 6 de 3 oku 2 senman En Ateta Otoko] in train after work.
Alright continue...off to watch 1or2 more anime & dramas....since i arent slping yet =/

Gosh..Sounds low life ar? ha
May things start to change! for the better..yea!

jaa ne~

2008-08-06T22:05:00.005+08:00

2more weekends.. and here comes Premier League.. cant wait for it to start. If i tio beh pio!! i fly to England and watch ar!!

Feel like keeping myself out of the world now and close myself inside closet... Jus like how Rukia was kept inside Ichigo's hmm (bleach) haiz...

....I'm just tired

2008-08-03T18:40:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Ryan.

2008-08-03T18:08:00.002+08:00

[[Edna once told me , to be in love is still the best ting but its the break up tt we have to b heartache , so if anyone allows her to choose again , she wld still chose to b in love again ]]
Now i really agree wiv her , everyone knows tat r/s can b very hurtful , bt everyday there are still ppl willingly fallin into tis deadly trap of love and god knows how mch hurt it can be.But well , there are diff ways of seeing the prob , diff ways of interpreting the word HURT.You may suffer the risk of being hurt and yes you may giv up a part of urself when you love , but have u thought of things tis way ? If you don giv all ur love to tat person , you hurt e person who loves you even mre? Afterall its a risk you're gg to take * Nobody says weneva we are in love we are gg to live happily eva aft , a r/s doesnt mean its perfect w/o probs , bt if we are goin to b paranoid abt the matter , we are jus gg to miss out on the experience of love itself.

Well, at certain pt of time , we , tend to overlook the significant of a r/s , and do we love ? Have ur partner start grumbling tat you cared mre for the r/s mre than him or her ? You kept glorifying ur love , bt did you eva see wad they really need? Love isnt seeing ur partner as a concept , bt as a PERSON . Its abt concerning ur partner and nt being so mch mre concern abt not wanting to fail in e r/s . Afterall to me , its e person tat matters in e r/s , nt e r/s itself ba.

What happen in the future no one noes.. what wil happen wil happen wat wil not happen wil not happen.. Only God noes.. all lies in how we treat the situation for a beta future.

Theres no unanswered prayer....at times the answer is no.

2008-08-01T11:43:00.011+08:00

Ok I fucked up ok. I fucked up.. I screwed everything up now..
Im sorry.. Is it all too late.?

it seems like forever since we're been apart. i wish we can make a fresh start
i cant change it now, i want to be with u but i juz dn noe how.
i'll think of u always and e way we use to be. cos u are so special to me.

If you are here looking at this post.
Although its already too late..but I juz want to take this chance to tel you i'm arent tired of you or relationship, what im tired of is myself for being so sensitive over things that makes me agitated. but deep in my heart thats not wat i wanted to happen. my overreact causes this arise of problem. I cant retrieve back wat i said..its all too late. the sentence juz spill out of my mouth and it causes ur heart to sink..i know watever i said wont amend anything when its me who started picking out problem,and its oso me who is asking for forgiveness.
My heart is at a worst state too right now..i screwed up all these..i hate myself.. i hate myself for why athough i not happy with the way u respond towards me sometime yet i chose to take this out again and again to say instead of thinkin of the brighter side. My heart feels the needs of wanting more, its becos i love u that i concern abt the current situation. That u always treat my heart with respect and i shld try to forgive and forget so as to not always think the problem is stil there..but its already ended.. further more,u oni disappoint me..,but i Hurts you, I'm the worst.

You gave your heart, but i broke it. I fucked up, i'm the worst. :`(

2008-07-30T13:37:00.002+08:00

Together you been through everything, some good some bad.
some things have make u happy, others made u sad.
but no matter what had happened,
i'll always be here to lend an ear, to pick u up,dry your tears.
you can count on me, because thats what frens are for

To YOU & all my friends who been through a lots & having difficulties with their life/school/r.s.

jaa ne~

2008-07-29T21:17:00.007+08:00

"You'll find boredom where there is the absence of a good idea”

A relatively bored day, a lengthy of hours, a waste of time. Woke up from bed having no idea of how to spend the day result in spending whole of the time at home, surfing net, browsing blog skins, lying on bed(hibernate mode). Mood unaffected as have been use to it. The emptiness in this heart unlikely can feels a different.

`Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. There's always a better day tomorrow than today...

What would you do on a boring day?

Here's a funny clip by Little Britain. I laughed! Everyone's taste of humor is different, I suppose, you must be able to catch the essence of the joke. Ohhh maybe i diddd.. maybe i didnttt
http://youtube.com/watch?v=4mCbIz10PK8

2008-07-28T18:08:00.012+08:00

Went Surrender today alone to buy a new Head Porter walleeett... yeaaa! haha. have been saving for mths & here you are mine, will upload the pics later. Thats my only objective of the day so i went,purchased,home i go. kind of lazy to walk ard..
Ohhh yaa!

Neighborhood & Visim Tee
$80-$120 after 30%

I wannnn!! any good ppl out there can buy it for me?

jaa ne~

2008-07-27T21:06:00.018+08:00

ONE PIECE SD DIORAMA FIGURE

ONE PIECE PIRATE SHIP THOUSAND SUNNY

ok...here are some new collections of mine lol. "ONE PIECE SD DIORAMA FIGURE" was bought from taiwan by my er jie. "ONE PIECE PIRATE SHIP THOUSAND SUNNY" i bought at Kallang Leisure Park, Latendo. My fav. of all! Erm..kind of lame to post this toys.. haha

2008-07-23T23:54:00.003+08:00

Today have to extend my work hour to 18.30. Whyyy? bcos one of them couldnt workkk today hence i stay longer for the replacement to come. Finnee.. After 8hours of dreaming in my shop alone i'm back at home. Yesssss home, a place where i keep myself shut in my room. call it resting, call it rotting, call it boring.. ok oni if you..you noe.

These days. my family haiz da jie everytime drunk,all she talks are rubbish oni to catch my parents attention. me and her nth to talk about. parents conflicts.. mom wish dad pay more attention to her..but dad woodblock la. wont change de la. no way it will..little tings cos arguement. 1quiet dad 1 naggy mom 1 ki siao and drinker da jie ah ma she lives in her own world. nothing bothers her. haiz er jie wish u faster come back frm taiwan, u not ard i all alone. no one to talk joke laugh with.

jus 1more..1more..1more chance...

2008-07-23T14:42:00.001+08:00

Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper. My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers. I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents. My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.

2008-07-22T00:11:00.013+08:00

Went Bishan today with grace to have dinner. Haven been to Dome cafe for very long(as customer) Finally have a taste of cesar salad and the best Club sandwich. How nostalgic..the time and days i use to spend there(once my workplace) Oh right! this is a new blog. Got some help from grace. and cool finally its done.Thx yo! alrite yosh! off for anime.

Yet a boring day again..

Jaa ne~.

Ootzuchi Kotzuchi

Unconditional

It doesn't insist too much.

Nakama

Words

0388

Fight

Empty Nite

Shine

That future

Give it to me..

Lyrics that feels

Damn!!

360

My Bitter Heart

Keep Running

Fastforward

Coincidence

Perseverance

If This's What You Call...

Time to Recharge

Tonight.

Seriously hangover

Feels the Pain

Justaway

For a laugh

Big time mistake

Hang out

I SeEs heLLL

My life is f***ed

The Voice that Calls Out

No matter what

Likes.

C.E.R.F

Are you depressed or lonely?

what about now.

Reminisce

Stressful me..

The moment of time

Oh Let it be! Just let it be.

REtro Party

Dead as it is...

Half alive

Happy Thanksgiving

Otaku...?

Maybe its just me...

Nowhere....

I eat potato chip, drink coke, give u a slap, u also cant chase me.

Ryan's Encore Monologue

Yes Sir, Yes Sir, 3 black fool

Its Getting Near, Yet Still Far to go..

Bo Tai Chii....

The Fog Is Clearing....

Walking away...

EPL highlights

Damaged...

only if i could...

原谅我 lyrics

Fly away....

Its all becos of........

Original Fake Fall/Winter 2008 - 4 Pocket Shirt

一天电话都没响过 就这样! 一天的注意力 都在它身上.

Clueless & lost

The Drawing days, the memories

一天电话都没响过就这样! 一天的注意力都在它身上.