Its getting heavier each day...

And I am the apple that fell
too close to the trunk, worm-holed
bruised and rotten to the core,
Never in the mood to do anything,
Scared.

For 1second
Imagine,
what it must be like
to be me and
Think, about
how hard it is
to walk in my worn shoes.


江惠 家後 MTV

Due to some circumstances...
sry to this customer, for me showing a little temper to you..
i was told after that i look kinda fierce when i handle him.
hmm..
now i think back... mayb i did..,
that i show my temper...
I never thought that i bring my personal feelings into work.
Just...thots are running ard my head..

When you're gone
And the words i need to hear to always get me thru the day..

My heart is so heavy in the nite,
when the moon is shining bright...

There goes my day..



PS: hey ppl, how u think of this blogskin with the oldies soundtrack. hah i kind of like it. Retro?

作詞：阿沁 作曲：阿沁

萧敬腾 - 原谅我


請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

What a tough day..
days ago, sunday 17aug
Joe drive us to sentosa without knowing the way..
But we manage to reach sentosa.. 1hr in the van directing him the direction.. funny

anyway, headed to sentosa
chompchomp for dinner.
then i headed to cousin house to watch football tgt.

Manu 1-1 Newc
Pefect result for Newc.. fantastic Given for his saves.


49 more days....
i gonna pack myself with work work work and earn more money before the enlistment..
this is starting to get nutter.

There seems to be no different for the past few days..
haiz....

Life is wonderful if you noe how to live it.

See this 2guys there really enjoy their youth. LOL
3mins onwards is kinda lame and funny.





PS: for my previous post.. juz wanna say..i was agitated as well..oh i'm too fierce..sry

I'm Better of alone,


You think everything is stupid..
You think i'm tired of it..
You think i busier than u..
You think i thought too much..
You think i talk to u half heart-ed..
You think i find u troublesome..
find talking to u is troublesome..

Let me tell you..

I think our mind are stupid
I think is you who's tired of it
I think is you who's more busy
when even thou i busy i take a little time to atleast sms u,
unlike u.. not even a words when u are busy
I think is u who talk half heat-ed
I think is u who find it troublesome..
juz like wat u said..u juz keep quiet and do ur own thing
and dn bother about me..

You angry at me,
I angry at you.
I seek the explanation,
You say i think too much & ask for the sake of the ans.
I care about the situation,
You juz keep quiet and ignore.
I think and think cos i care, cos i worried u angry at me which i dnwan,
You keep yourself occupied by work so not to think.
You are juz running away..running always
Just as i start to break this silence
you start to say all bad that i did.

Now i say i not happy with u keeping quiet & ignore me for days, sms with a tone of coldness
and you say you aren't happy with my past replies with the same coldness feel.
You are juz unhappy with that.. and u keep quiet choosing to use coldness back to me.
Doesnt it shows a sense of purposely

Whenever we argue.. you always like to end it with "do watever you want ba" So now..i have nothing else to say..since i already break this silence.. i just want to forgive & forget.. but now its should be you to start breaking this silence once again in days to come..


I can say no more becos there is nothing else i can say to describe how i feel as perfectly as you deserve it.
Your actions has made tears dwell in my eyes.

I once said, i hope we wont get agitated with each other anymore,hope we wont be like last time
You said u want me not to have negative thoughts..
But now.. you hold the grudge of me replying moodily when im tired or sick.
Its you who have negative thoughts now and then..

Juz do ur best in your exam now. dint go smoothly doesnt matter no need to feel sad.. at least u tried your best.


Our timing are always wrong..Our mind are always not connected..

I just recall last Tuesday i went Surrender and saw the people there unpacking cartoons of new clothes.. I peep into it, OH its this year august 08 new release. I saw a design of my taste. I love checked shirt. This is the look:



*izit true that when a person is down, she will go shopping like no other business, eat like no one cares. Me..? somehow now i feel like spending on more Tees,shoes and change change change.... mood sux...

haiz today still the same.. so silence.. Hello! please break this silence laaa.

ok....Show time.

If i follow the stream....will i get to the sea?

Why am i constantly unhappy each day..
Gimme a break..

Simply Clueless and lost.

ok whats now, I totally dont understand you.. angry at me for?
for me slping then dint pick up ur call..?
I simply don't understand...


Today's weather so cold...strong wind everywhere.. but my body temperature is sibei hot now...!
Fever

The Drawing days that use to be
The moments of holding the pencil
Never to be seen for months
A laziness act
Or a lost of inspiration
What should he do

No one else
Has taken a glimpse of these papers,
Just the boy, and an old pencil.
Bonded together, by past secrets and lies,
He tries every day
To forget them.

He is the apple that fell
too close to the trunk, worm-holed
bruised and rotten to the core,
Never in the mood to do anything,
Scared.

His fingers are getting all ready
But Its the mind that had lost all vision
Draw is wat he uses to have only
which he himself sees and communicate

But now he's no alone anymore
He just clueless and lost
He hates to dream its just so troublesome

Its hard to walk with a worn shoes

Tomorrow an off day for me.. so wont be sleeping early even thou my body is tired. Today seems like just a "show" day for me..I watched hitman reborn ep93&94 & bleach during work, Jap drama[Lotto 6 de 3 oku 2 senman En Ateta Otoko] in train after work.
Alright continue...off to watch 1or2 more anime & dramas....since i arent slping yet =/

Gosh..Sounds low life ar? ha
May things start to change! for the better..yea!

2more weekends.. and here comes Premier League.. cant wait for it to start. If i tio beh pio!! i fly to England and watch ar!!


Feel like keeping myself out of the world now and close myself inside closet... Jus like how Rukia was kept inside Ichigo's hmm (bleach) haiz...

....I'm just tired

Happy Birthday Ryan.

[[Edna once told me , to be in love is still the best ting but its the break up tt we have to b heartache , so if anyone allows her to choose again , she wld still chose to b in love again ]]
Now i really agree wiv her , everyone knows tat r/s can b very hurtful , bt everyday there are still ppl willingly fallin into tis deadly trap of love and god knows how mch hurt it can be.But well , there are diff ways of seeing the prob , diff ways of interpreting the word HURT.You may suffer the risk of being hurt and yes you may giv up a part of urself when you love , but have u thought of things tis way ? If you don giv all ur love to tat person , you hurt e person who loves you even mre? Afterall its a risk you're gg to take * Nobody says weneva we are in love we are gg to live happily eva aft , a r/s doesnt mean its perfect w/o probs , bt if we are goin to b paranoid abt the matter , we are jus gg to miss out on the experience of love itself.

Well, at certain pt of time , we , tend to overlook the significant of a r/s , and do we love ? Have ur partner start grumbling tat you cared mre for the r/s mre than him or her ? You kept glorifying ur love , bt did you eva see wad they really need? Love isnt seeing ur partner as a concept , bt as a PERSON . Its abt concerning ur partner and nt being so mch mre concern abt not wanting to fail in e r/s . Afterall to me , its e person tat matters in e r/s , nt e r/s itself ba.


What happen in the future no one noes.. what wil happen wil happen wat wil not happen wil not happen.. Only God noes.. all lies in how we treat the situation for a beta future.

Theres no unanswered prayer....at times the answer is no.

Ok I fucked up ok. I fucked up.. I screwed everything up now..
Im sorry.. Is it all too late.?

it seems like forever since we're been apart. i wish we can make a fresh start
i cant change it now, i want to be with u but i juz dn noe how.
i'll think of u always and e way we use to be. cos u are so special to me.

If you are here looking at this post.
Although its already too late..but I juz want to take this chance to tel you i'm arent tired of you or relationship, what im tired of is myself for being so sensitive over things that makes me agitated. but deep in my heart thats not wat i wanted to happen. my overreact causes this arise of problem. I cant retrieve back wat i said..its all too late. the sentence juz spill out of my mouth and it causes ur heart to sink..i know watever i said wont amend anything when its me who started picking out problem,and its oso me who is asking for forgiveness.
My heart is at a worst state too right now..i screwed up all these..i hate myself.. i hate myself for why athough i not happy with the way u respond towards me sometime yet i chose to take this out again and again to say instead of thinkin of the brighter side. My heart feels the needs of wanting more, its becos i love u that i concern abt the current situation. That u always treat my heart with respect and i shld try to forgive and forget so as to not always think the problem is stil there..but its already ended.. further more,u oni disappoint me..,but i Hurts you, I'm the worst.